Monday, October 31, 2011

Happy Halloween and Baby Story...

I went to target this past Halloween season and was looking at all of the fun Halloween candy, hoping to pick up some of my favorite holiday treats. I was looking for these...

Only come to find out they don't make them anymore... WHAT!? Who doesn't love a good York patty and you can't help but enjoy the bright orange filling. I searched online and found them on Amazon for $30 for 3 bags. Yeah right, I am not going to pay $10 a bag... :(

Oh well, starting tomorrow the Christmas Candy comes out and that means....

* (last year for my bday my husband bought me an entire 12 pack box of these--this is how much I love them/him)

Baby News--nothing to report. My appointment is in 2 days, I tried calling today to get it changed to tomorrow, but my doctor is out :(...

How we came to a decision to start a family...

My husband and I were never ones who wanted to start a family right away... There is a funny story attached to this... Then, as our marriage progressed we started thinking about it more and more. We both had steady jobs, we had just bought a house, etc. I always wanted to be a 'younger mom' (stop having kids by the time I'm 30), but only want 2 kids, so not in a huge rush. We just randomly decided to 'try' and see how it went. Everyone we had talked to said it took them 6 months to a year to even get pregnant--we had planned on an April baby (perfect time to have a kid for a teacher); however, those plans did not work out. I think I got preggo like the first day... Whoops...

I remember waking up to go to the gym in the morning (I used to go before work), but was a feeling a little tired/lazy. I had bought a pregnancy test, because I was a little late, but this was the first month off BC, so I didn't worry about it too much (my body getting used to a 'typical' cycle). I somewhat jokingly told my husband I'm taking a test, if it's positive I'm not going to the gym and sleeping in. Well, what do you know, I came back into bed, told my husband and got about 2 more hours of sleep that morning.

So basically, I shouldn't be that upset about the baby being 'late', technically she is about 6 months early! :)


Sunday, October 30, 2011

A Little History...

*I felt a little bad in my first post. I know there are many women out there who would love to be preggo, but can't. I understand that, and I am grateful for my baby, and the experience; however, just personally, waiting and being patience are not the strongest qualities I have.

Ok... So... Still no baby--I have to say I tried really, Really, REALLY hard yesterday to get something going. I was in the garden, gardening on my hands, knees, squatting, etc. for about 90 minutes yesterday, followed up by another trip to the mall (there was a sale at Banana Republic and my husband wanted a jacket), I ended up being risky and buying a skirt on SUPER sale (who knows if I will be the same size after my pregnancy as I was before my pregnancy, but hey, a little motivation never hurt anyone).

My husband and I have been married for a little over 2 years. We met at a concert--he had 4 tickets, I was supposed to hang out with a mutual friend of ours, he invited her, she felt bad canceling on me, and so she asked if I could come along too... We had both graduated from college and he had just moved back home to start his 'big boy job', I was in the process of starting graduate school, neither of us had any intention of dating anyone seriously. I remember seeing him and thinking he was attractive, but very arrogant (from his background he was used to a more 'exclusive' lifestyle, never really had trouble dating in college, and was starting his 'big boy job'--also for about the first 3 times we hung out, in a small group, all he did was talk about people--definitely not a turn-on).

I am not an idiot, I knew he was interested in me, so I took advantage of the situation (what girl doesn't enjoy a few free meals every now and then). I was in the process of moving downtown and he lived about 30 minutes away, I thought it would fade fast--little did I know that he planned on moving downtown, let alone about 2 blocks from my place (seriously?). All of a sudden these 'casual' dates had to be a little bit more laid out. I told him how it was going to be one day in the car... Our conversation went a little bit like 'now that we are going to be in the same ward (church), you (husband) can't do this whole stop talking to me thing. If you don't want to hang out, fine with me, but don't think I'm an idiot, we'll have to see each other every week at church, I would rather it not be awkward... we are both adults and can handle that things just don't work out...' My husband was very surprised by this, he had never been talked to by a girl like this, it was new to him, a concept of possibly dating a girl who would talk back to him and not be a 'lap-dog' as some of his previous dating prospects... He was intrigued. I still had yet to be.

I became intrigued once he lost his 'big boy job', yes, that is right, the economy hit my husband--he was working at the corporate office of, at the time, a large bank who was bought out by another bank. I have told him if he had never had lost his job, I would have never married him (it made him a little more humble). Now this was turning into a more serious dating situation. Fast forward to New Years... Yes, I admit it, I said I love you first, ONLY BECAUSE my husband was to scared to. For about the entire month of December he would say things like 'there's this girl who I love and I really like to hang out with her,' etc. fishing for me to respond and have him flat out say 'I love you'; however, I was not ready to say it, so I didn't want to put him on the spot and have me not say anything back (I would have felt a little bad).

I had always wanted a summer wedding, the weather around where I live isn't the best, and at the time I was a teacher and summer just works with a teacher's calendar. My husband isn't the best planner (and I am really anal about planning). Summer was approaching and I told him one night 'if you want to get married THIS summer you have to propose soon, if not, I will still date you and marry you, but it won't be until the following summer, I don't care, either way I still love you and will probably be with you, it just depends if you want to get married or not'--this WAS NOT an ultimatum.

Me, being a planner got really anxious in May, I thought a proposal was coming but didn't know when (again, back to me being a planner)--not that I needed to know a specific date; however, my Master's Exams were coming up, which were enough to stress about, I didn't want to stress about a proposal on top of that, I told him 'you don't have to tell me when, just before or after my test'... There was a lot of grumbling (on my part because he wouldn't tell me) and when it came down to it, I ruined his proposal plans (not knowingly), so he had to change them at the last minute. I was at my parent's house and he used my dog Chase to propose to me. I said yes, and on September 9th, 2009, my husband and I got married.

P.S. My husband did get another job shortly after, and just this last week got a nice new promotion :)

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Bored...

Here I am, 40.5 weeks preggo. A week of my short maternity leave... GONE. This baby, who had a due date of 10/26; however, every ultrasound she was measuring 'larger' at about 10/23, is still in me. I know I am not the most patient person and can be pretty stubborn (obviously she is following after her mom), but I am ready...

I have to admit I am both excited to have a baby and start a family, but at this point, I am equally as excited to get her out of me. I have never been an emotional person, I like to describe myself as a pessimist (or as my husband calls it 'realist'). Not that I am Negative Nancy all the time, I am just very reasonable and can be blunt and say things how they are, not meaning to offend anyone, but sometimes people don't like to be called out on things... Opps... :) However, since last Sunday I have been on an emotional roller-coaster of 1. Being really excited this baby could come, and hoping she would come a little early (her 'fake' due date) 2. Not being patient or knowing when she was coming (I am a planner), only to have her due date come and go 3. being really upset and frustrated (I was fully aware of my feelings and let people know how I felt, again, not to offend anyone who might have taken my 'snappiness' personally) 4. Now I am just over it....

This last week, while I have been on 'maternity leave' (with no baby), I have been extremely bored (I could never be a stay at home mom)... I refused to clean my house for the longest time, because I was going to throw that chore on my husband (he could clean while I did 'baby stuff' with the baby), I have been to the mall more times this last week to 'walk the baby out' more times than I think I have been in the last year (I am a HUGE fan of online shopping)--P.S. going to the mall when you feel like a whale during your favorite clothing season (fall), can be a little depressing--And as bored as I am, I cannot call anyone to 'talk'. I am afraid to call people because if I do call them, they think it's because I'm going to the hospital, or because I already had the baby, which gets them excited, but it's the last thing I want to talk about, and I feel bad (I know they are well meaning and it's just me, but being constantly asked about something you desperately want, but you don't have, is a little depressing).

So... Here I am, starting a blog, we'll see how long it lasts. I am a large fan of 'blog stalking'; however, never really got in on the craze--I find a lot of blogs post only the 'positive aspects' of people lives (which makes you subconsciously feel like a 'bad' person), or on the opposite end, people express WAY too much personal information... I mainly found a lot of pleasure with blogs. I am sure if I continue with this blog, it will turn into that (a journal of sorts). Right now I will fully admit I am venting to whoever is reading this about something more than 50% of women go through (delivering after their due date).